I don't do goodbyes very well. In fact, they are one of my biggest fears. As another semester comes to a close and I prepare to leave my college for the summer, I am facing yet another round of goodbyes. Some will only be for the summer, but for my friends who are graduating, this is the last time I will see them in a while, if not forever.
I have always struggled with goodbyes. Because of how invested I get in peoples lives and how much I care about them, I get very scared and sad when I realize that I'm going to have to say goodbye to them. Even if it is just for a few months, weeks, or days. Although I am an introvert, I love spending time with people and I am a huge people person. I know... it's a strange mix. But that's what I get for being INFJ! haha. Anyway, it's hard for me to leave in the summer because I know that I won't have my familiar schedule of seeing my friends and professors every day.
I was struggling a lot with this tonight as I had to say goodbye to some of my best friends. Some of them I will see in a couple weeks, but some of them I won't see for over 3 months. The end of the semester snuck up on me again this year and I was not at all mentally prepared to say goodbye to the people I spend so much time with every week. However, as I sat in my room crying and thinking through how much I hate constantly moving back and forth between my hometown and college, I began to remember something. There is one person I don't have to say goodbye to, and that is God. Even though I may have a lot of goodbyes in my life right now, I will never have to say goodbye to God. He is always there for me, no matter where I am in the world or how far away my friends are. God will always be right by my side. And that fact is something that will make the constant goodbyes this week a little bit easier.
I have always struggled with goodbyes. Because of how invested I get in peoples lives and how much I care about them, I get very scared and sad when I realize that I'm going to have to say goodbye to them. Even if it is just for a few months, weeks, or days. Although I am an introvert, I love spending time with people and I am a huge people person. I know... it's a strange mix. But that's what I get for being INFJ! haha. Anyway, it's hard for me to leave in the summer because I know that I won't have my familiar schedule of seeing my friends and professors every day.
I was struggling a lot with this tonight as I had to say goodbye to some of my best friends. Some of them I will see in a couple weeks, but some of them I won't see for over 3 months. The end of the semester snuck up on me again this year and I was not at all mentally prepared to say goodbye to the people I spend so much time with every week. However, as I sat in my room crying and thinking through how much I hate constantly moving back and forth between my hometown and college, I began to remember something. There is one person I don't have to say goodbye to, and that is God. Even though I may have a lot of goodbyes in my life right now, I will never have to say goodbye to God. He is always there for me, no matter where I am in the world or how far away my friends are. God will always be right by my side. And that fact is something that will make the constant goodbyes this week a little bit easier.
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